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12 Nov! shopping for prom dresses day.

11 NOVEMBER :)

Hi blog, it's been a longgggg time.
I dreamt i got 24 points for o levels. Haha.
Maybe i was so speechless i couldnt wake up despite my phone ringing. I woke up at 12+ today. Gosh what a bear. *Hibernating*
Lol anyway that dream got me thinking if i should go to jc or poly or wherever.
Actually i already thought about this a long long long time ago..almost constantly. Stopped thinking cos it always ends up with me concluding that,
i dont know what i want to be or do, so i should just go to a jc..since its the quickest possible pathway for me to go to uni.

In the first place. Can i even make it to a jc --' or i'll get 20 points and just manage to scrape through.
and, am i cut out for jc.
maybe i'll just get used to the lifestyle after some time.
uh but anyway, everywhere i go i'd be meeting some obstacles..bla bla bla.

i want to try something different...............
i want to.
ah i dont know.
maybe i'll just slog my guts out for 2+ years...
then maybe i can do whatever i want with my life after that.

choices choices choices.
why do i have to choose carefully anyway. not like i'd die if i choose wrongly.
okay maybe i will..meet with an accident along the way or something. or be so stressed till i want to commit suicide.
okay no. im not so silly -_-
I shall a make a promise to myself that *I, sharmaine sie, will never never never be conquered by stress* maybe i will break down sometimes, BUT I WILL NEVER COMMIT SUICIDE.
please, there's so much more to life than just studies.
So, yes about choosing Carefully.
I think sometimes people choose so carefully they'll just go round in circles.
This cannot, that cannot. Everything also Cannot.
Of course, some paths are shorter, but not neccesarily happier.
Some are long and difficult.
I hope i wont regret.
I wont regret actually.
I wont because at the end of it all, there will always be something that is worth celebrating. People you meet, friendships forged, hard times you've been through, lessons learnt. Experiences. So many things.

Nyeh.
I have a strong feeling that i'll go crazy next year, but AH damn i gotta stop thinking that or i will really go crazy.
Thoughts become reality.
If i do, friends, please do Not send me to a mental hospital or whatever. I just need time alone :D

Talking about choices and studies and thinking about the future..
my mom was talking to me about my studies, future job.
it's so funny how she contradicts herself.
1. She tells me money is more impt than being happy.
I totally disagree. I'd rather do something i like doing my whole life for a little money. Of course, enough money to sustain my life.
If i had no passion, i'd still choose a less stressful job. I must be mad, if i choose to shorten my life for more money. (stress=loss of life)
2. And then she tells me, happiness is more impt than money.
Tell me she doesnt know what she's talking about.
3. She tells me to study when i am not studying.
4. She tells me to Stop studying when i am studying.
I am confused.
Hahahhahhaha.

Feeling quite sick thinking about choices already.
What if i stopped schooling after secondary school? :D
I'll go everywhere! I'll have fun i'll paint i'll draw i'll dance i'll sing i'll be a fool i'll be mad i'll be anything i wanna be i'll be everything i wanna be.
but where do i go after having fun eh.
hmm.
haha. maybe schooling is better..though i think, 3/4 the time i'd be cursing myself for choosing to go to school but 1/4 the time i'd be thankful that im going to school because it sets a direction for me in my life.
-balance is impt.
I'll still have fun, I'll still paint, i'll sill draw, i'll still dance, i'll still sing, i'll still be a fool, i'll still be mad, i'll still be anything and everything i want to be, whenever, whatever and wherever.

I will be happy. So will you :D
All the best to all of you friends graduating this year!
Enjoy life ;D

The Time Traveller's Wife is so sad. I'm going to read the book...after o levels.
Going to make presents for awhile (:
I have many super belated birthday presents for my dear friends. hahaha. almost a year!
thats long..and i'm not even half done with the presents. Haha.

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Cause there's something about the way you'll love me
There's just something about the way you'll know me
That I can't explain enough

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Something is very wrong with my blog account! I can only see what im typing, the "PUBLISH POST" button, the "SAVE NOW" button and the "Labels for this post:" box. Lol.

Watched G.I. Joe today at tampines..nice and cool ;) Although i was feeling super cold and had to hold my pee in the whole time..haha.
Left to go for dinner with family and relatives at downtown east.

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I was so happy that you could understand. (: So Happy.

huh. i cannot post any pictures :(